Lil intro
- Jun 11, 2016
- 3 min read
I guess I'll start from the beginning and talk about the things that has led me to be where I am today. I may not have had much death, sickness, poverty or other tragic / detrimental things, but that doesn't mean just because there is someone out there with a harder life than mine doesn't mean my life isn't hard (if u know what i mean).
Anyway, this past year has been really difficult for me. June 7th 2015 I graduated from Ethel Walker where I had to leave everything I loved and everything I knew. Those 3 years were hands down the best years of my life so far. Then that led into summer which was great, the anticipation and anxiousness of leaving for college grew and grew as the summer dragged on. Before I knew it the house I grew up in would no longer by where I lived anymore. That concept was extremely hard to deal with, yet ironically at the same time I was ready to leave. My first semester of college was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. My boyfriend back at home hooked up with his best friend, my field hockey team and my roommates didn't seem to like me ( and literally everyone else tbh) and my anxiety and depression hit a whole new level. Therefore, by November, I made the decision to leave Roger Williams (list of reasons in a blog post coming soon) and transfer across the United States, as far away as possible.
There is a lot more that goes into my first semester that led me to hit rock bottom emotionally, but there is no need to dwell on the past for now. When I got home for winter break, it was time for a complete change, a change in my attitude and mindset. I figured my shit out and headed back to school with a positive attitude. I didn't have field hockey to worry about and a whole new set of roommates. My plan was to take life the way it came at me. If I wanted to do something, I did it. The most important part of my plan was to learn acceptance. By accepting things I could not change, I changed my own life. I fell in love with life again. I stopped worrying about what other people were doing and stopped letting the negativity of others effect me. (P.S. Talking shit about other people is the most toxic thing to yourself and those around you). I released all negativity and only showed everyone / everything that came my way love.
Love has an unbelievable affect on yourself and everyone around you. Kindness, compassion and acceptance all come from being able to love. I became selfish with my happiness, if something or someone didn't make me happy I would leave. I did what I felt like doing and ended up on some crazy adventures that I'll remember forever. When I opened myself up to the world, the world will opened itself up to me and I finally saw the beauty of this life.
For those who are reading this, thank you for taking the time out of ur life to hear what I have to say. This blog is going to be a combination of stories, advice and recommendations. I want people to listen to what I have to say about how I changed and how I'm still changing my life in a positive way. Please subscribe to keep yourself posted!! Thank you again, much love, Alex.
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