Home is where the heart is

I head back to Boulder tomorrow and I truly am excited, yet the whole thing is bittersweet. These past two weeks here in Connecticut have gone by way too fast.

Although I wish I had more time here, at the same time there is nothing left for me here. The one thing besides my family that could ever keep me here, the farm, is for sale. That piece of land has shaped me and given me the best memories and moments of my entire life. It breaks my heart to know that it might not be here when I come back.

Well, whenever I decide to come back. (it's a piece of land tht won't move but u get the point, i hope). The next time I will be home is sometime during the summer. 

One thing that I've found interesting on this vacation is this idea of "home". What is my home? Is it Connecitcut or is it Colorado? Well both kind of right? 

It's been an ongoing debate in my head ever since I came home but colorado is home too?? 

So I guess the answer would be the old cliche phrase of "home is where the heart is". As much as I love my little connecticut home and my little connecticut farm, Boulder is where my heart is now. 

I love Boulder and I'm thankful everyday that I wake up and see those mountains. I get to live in one of the coolest places in the country. Filled with life and filled with opportunities.

I think that now that I've been home, I'll definitely feel a little more homesick than before. I'm also sad to go back due to the fact that I know I won't be here again for another six or seven months. I've never been away from home that long, and it sounds probably a little pathetic, but the thought is slightly unsettling. But yet again, this is all part of being an adult now. I have a job and a house and major responsibilities. 

I stress a lot and my life isn't easy. But I make it. I don't know how I do it. thank you universe.

I have complete faith in the process. I will be fine and I will make it and I will be successful. It just won't always be easy. 

Everyday I make the choice to try to better myself and make myself happy. 

I've been thinking about a lot recently and I'm about to make some changes. 

This past semester has been a huge adjustment for me and I'm ready to go back to Boulder and kick life's ass. 

I'm ready to make the adjustments I need to to be my best. 

All in all, I'm gonna miss my family and the farm but I'm ready to go back. Happiness is my goal and I'm gonna go get it. 

Here's to growth and here's to happiness. 

Much love, 

Alex