I'm up

Since I wrote last I've honestly been really fucking sad. I felt lost and frankly I was. Everyday was a mundane routine of depression. I was literally a potato that could hardly get out of bed.

And as of right now, I can't say that there are some days where I don't feel like that

My anxiety has gotten a little worse, that's just due to me stressing myself out.

I've been sort of a zombie the past month or two

and that makes me even more sad and the cycle continues

But see? I am able to understand this cycle. I've started listening to myself. I had to be real with myself.

I was hiding and what the fuck dude. ALEX CONNOR DOESN'T HIDE

(well not anymore fuckers)

Excuse my language but I'm tired and fed up

with myself (of all people!!!)

I wasn't myself and there's nothing I love more than being myself

I was caught up in a haze of bad thoughts, people and emotions.

Yet, I truly am grateful for the bad things that have happened to me

At this point, I need to get up.

I have to go get life. I was in a slump but damn, I can't be in my little pity party and wait for life to present itself

I guess once I realized this, ironically once again, that you have to go get life

If you want it, do it

Cheers to the bad times and those times after where you wake the fuck up and love life again

Here's to life dude, I'm going for it

Pce Luv n Milkshakes

Alex