Prelude 3

Around February I started hanging out with some really cool people. The residents of Almeida 412 and the rest of the Almeida 400s, thanks for helping me make it through second semester (especially you, Ryan)

Anyway,

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28 February 2016

"Be soft. Don't let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

(This was a quote)

This quote would help me when I would get frustrated. Do NOT let pain make you hate. Please please please.

15 March 2016

"I'm so fucking frustrated. Everything is so stressful for no reason. I hold so many doubts about going to Colorado. It drains my body. I walk around heavy. There is so much pressure to decide what I need to do with my life. I don't know what I want and that is fine. I just want to explore and do what makes me happy and my family isn't getting it. I'm young, I have time. Why is everyone in such a rush?

Side Note: Shoutout to Ryan Fowler, Thanks for changing my life. I will love you forever. We are the universe together. My a part of my heart will always long for you, only you."

I promise that if you hold doubt it will spread and destroy everything good you have. Doubt is the worst thing in the world. Thankfully, shortly after this post comes this,

5 April 2016

"I will do this. I can do this. I have to do this. I will go to Colorado. I am going to be so happy. I am going to do so many new things and meet so many new people. I'm going to change my life for the better. I'm going to take this leap of faith saying 'fuck it' and let whatever happen, happen. As long as love is in my heart nothing bad can happen. This is my life, my happiness and I'm going to be the one to make it all better. I have to do this for myself. No more doubts."

26 June 2016

"I am doing this. I am going to colorado. No more doubts."

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As of this week, I am officially a University of Colorado Boulder student.

One of the biggest doubts I've had about Colorado is my family not having money. Yes, my family owns a tobacco farm. We are not rich by any means. My family practically lives paycheck to paycheck. My family also makes too much money for financial aid. I got nothing from CU for financial. NOTHING. I finally sat down with my mom to talk about it. She told me, "Alex, you're going to Colorado. You need to do what you need to do for yourself. You can leave at anytime." So,

In approximately one month, I am going to move across the United States. I will do anything I need to do to get out there. I didn't go through all this bullshit to just let money dictate my future. I'm broke, yet

there is nothing left for me here, the mountains are calling and I must go.

P.S.

If anyone could help me in any way, whether it's showing me job-search websites or apartment / housing ideas, PLEASE head to my contact pace.

Advice, questions, comments, and concerns are always welcome too!

Pce n' Luv

Alex