there is shit everywhere

COLORADO COUNTDOWN: one freakin' month.

I don't have a car. I haven't confirmed a place to live.

SO BASICALLY,

I lack the "moving across the country" essentials a month before I move across the country. great :-)

I do have 69 thousand sweaters and sweatshirts, so I mean I'm prepared for cold weather at least!! (that won't happen for another three months, but it's fine)

At least I'm ready for something??

Oh and on top of all this chaos, I'm back to working like 69 hours a week.

Oh and on top of that I haven't taken my meds in almost a week so I cry 69 more so I can't even see half the time and I drown myself in my own tears

I'M SO OVERWHELMED

Holy shit I'm laughing @ myself ... I always look back on the craziness of the past few weeks and laugh at myself because I'm such a mess.

I'm going insane, slowly. But I still love every second of it.

THIS IS THE MOST AMAZING SHIT SHOW EVER

All of this stress is going to be worth it in the end.

I will be happy. I am going to be so so so free and I cannot wait.

(Shoutout to angel number 333)

With one month left, shit is getting real and shit is hitting the fan.

There is shit everywhere, but what'd you expect @ my shit show :)

There is so much to do in so little time.

I'm starting to think about leaving family, home, friends.

They are everything that has shaped me, everything that has given me love, shown me love, and everything that I have loved. This has been my little bubble for the past 18 years.

I do get really sad about it sometimes and I'm sure these feelings of nostalgia and sadness will only grow stronger the next few weeks. Leaving everything I've known is this idea I've only thought about for the past 8 months and I guess now it's time to feel it and experience it.

It's going to be a lot for me the first few months. Everything is going to be so new. REALLY new.

New state, new timezone, new friends, new lifestyle.

I can't wait to see how this experience is going to challenge me and how it's going to change me. This whole experience has been and will be some life changing shit.

This is it.

Time to just do it.

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Three favorite songs today:

Feel No Way // Drake

Redemption // Drake

9 // Drake

(and the rest of views) (i can't stop listening to it)

Hope u enjoyed my lil update on life

I'll be posting again v soon v soon!!!!

Pce luv n guy fieri

Alex